My relationship with this concept is perhaps a little too polarized to be considered balanced enough to be interesting. On one hand, as an introvert, ephemeral talk bores me to literal tears. And yet, not all of me feels that way. In fact, to be honest, it excites me if the right person understands my own world I've lived in for awhile or longer.
Ephemeral talk is the day-to-day things your subconscious mind accepts, and then immediately processes in one ear, and out the other. Things you had for dinner, events you went to that you don't remember, and the cconversation your boss had with you about something that ruined their day but never yours enough to pull you aside to sccream about it. Well, maybe that last part was a bit out there, but you get the idea.
I sometimes wonder if everyone's obviously going to have a different experience when it comes to how much or little attention you spend in short term mindscapes, but for me, it's pracctically 0% of my energy. In fact, they're the kind of things that tend to unintentionally drain me the most, and make me wish I didn't have to engage with them at all. Because I'm that centrally focused elsewhere, literally in other compartments of my mental realms, and yes, it's to a soft-ish fault.
I marvel sometimes at how some people's entire world view, is so focused on micro sensitivities, they don't understand that bigger things can move and be moved, in a co-creative direction. I don't like giving long-term credance to these people, when their focus is so distantly focused inwardly rather than outwardly...because those are the kinds of experiences that create a lot, of personal trauma as they stack up without anyone else understanding them fully, or being any the wiser.
I don't imagine people intend to become co-destructive, but personality matching has been a necessity for me to understand, in order to detect vibes that I can let my inner world safely out to play with relative ease. In this day and age, the media landscape has become so damn toxic, that it's only ever interested in mutual destruction. Perhaps it's always been that way, but it's spilling out into the everyday worlds of people who can't be allowed to return to the days where short term goals were less long term investments than they used to be.
I miss that the most about the pre-covid-era times the most. I can't go outside to enjoy a typical city park anymore without some third world condition being ignored by people more focused on making their own micro-external world more important than it needs to be, versus people's expansion of inner world concepts bbeing reduced, but also inflated at the expense and cost of everyday functionality concerns. Over all, these kind of instabilities are the exact opposite of my belief system...because the frequency of love, is literally blind to all of this...as its only direction to move in, is around and through combined, because it comes from the soul within expressing it, not projecting it.
The biggest truth I've had the hardest time actually swallowing, isn't the shedding of personal ego. It's the expeectations of ego being personal in the first place. Because I still remember the days when it used to co-exist with who someone became in part, not just in whole. which definitely in my opinion, has fractured the fundamental identity of soulful reclamation in the awakening journey of many people I've encountered. And it makes me question if me changing to be more or less the same in my faith of personal growth, has made me an unintentional target for exclusion because I woke up one day, in a world that forgot how to be kind to people.
Obviously not everyone within and beyond my personal bubble acts indicative of this, and I'm only seemingly ever to recognize and appreciate the things that are made with unconditional acceptance, because acknowledgement isn't inferring commitment, it's appreciating commitment inferred. And that has always been enough for me, to love the world and things around me, that I not only get regular use from, but rare value with regardless of the circumstance we're placed in. and what I see lately, are a lot of people trying to eliminate circumstancial choice, where it's needed most. And I entirely blame the use of cancel culture going main stream for this abundant lack of euphoria I desperately crave in meeting your casual, everyday stranger, especially in a high trust setting.
I'm not looking for reasons to be introverted more, I'm actually wanting the opposite. To crave being extraverted less, less often. It's not trust that's become my barrier, it's a lack of knowing what to do with where trust isn't welcome, that I think, overall, has blindsighted and fractured the everyday person on so many micro levels, that it's fundamentally altered the experience of requiring, versus not needing, to have your head and your soul on constant alert all the time for something trying to attack you senselessly. Which, as much of a reality as it is for some, it isn't mine and finding the rare few who agree with living like this as a lifestyle, is almost like finding a miracle in 2026.
We should want to take pride in our present, as well as our past and future co-creatively. and if it's going to be part of my legacy that I work towards such an aim, let it be known that you are my greatest inspiration for reaching out from the meditative state I'm forever always engaged in otherwise to do this. All I seek for, is a state of communion to amplify into continuous reunion.
Perhaps these are just the words of a lonely artist, or perhaps they're the words of a real visionary. Either way, ephemeral talk is something I welcome, in this capacity.